I sorry i dont live up to your standards i know im not a great person or a friend and it is hard for me to show what i feel i fabrica my own emoticons i cant tell when they are real of fake unless im online but you dont care no you never will i know you have had challenges to but i need you to stop being a hypocrite for once and just let me talk you get annoyed when im to quite and mad when im to loud you ac caring one day and another you would call me a manipulative b*tch im done you make me want to scream and feel pain but i dont and it hurts i want to stop but i feel connected to you please let me go i dont know my own feelings just the ones you told me to feel i dont feel i control anymore i fear every thing im droning with hope that will always be dead one day it wil stay but i want to hide to run i cant tell anyone i want to be gone but i dont know how i exist but i dont know how every thing feels off i dont know anymore i want to say this to you but im scared i want to yell and scream but i cant i was taught to be quite to hold my voice that i was annoying and horrid and i am so i act like a ghost hiding and being quite wen i trusted you i got to close you burned me im sorry it hurts im sorry i met you im sorry i was near you i write this so my voice is not used but is still there.

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